Playing in Public (Part 1)

I know this is belated, but vanilla life family emergencies and school have kept me at a constant state of emotional and physical drain. March 6th I played with Bear at a munch party for the first time. It was amazing and intense. I will write more later. Too exhausted tonight.

We Are Family

In some groups you will hear the comparison made between the group and a family. I have always felt close to my particular Munch group, but I realized Saturday night that we really are like a family. We get together for dinner, we talk, we laugh, and offer advice to help each other. Most of us try to keep in touch outside of the Munches too. It can be easy to take for granted, but I am impressed and touched by the way everyone really came together to remember their sister, Q.

I can't tell you how amazing it was to see everyone show up for Q's memorial. There were over 50 people who there and many more who couldn't be there that left messages of support and remembrance. It is in times of tragedy that the true character of the community as a whole is most visible. It really touched me to see everyone band together in grief and celebrate the life of an amazing friend. Q, you are loved and missed.

Will Work For Free

So I have been busy lately as I have stated before. Last weekend I babysat a four year old Saturday and Sunday. It was crazy. He is so energetic. And best of all, I did it for free. I will also be watching him again this coming weekend. My friends who own a bookstore are remodeling this month and they are hanging drywall this week. I offered to help them out for free as well. Also the game store where Sir and I met is moving this month and I might also help them out with that as well. Best of all my munch group has leased a dungeon space. They need volunteers to help get the space refinished and decorated by the first week of August. I am supposed to go help out this Friday. All in all, it is going to be a very busy week.

In addition to all the free labor I am offering this month, I am also still getting everything together for our move and for school at the end of August. I hate packing and I am royally sick of packing up everything we own. Especially since we are only moving 30 minutes away. I wish there were magical packing faeries. That way I could just leave out some milk, bread, and honey and not have to pack a thing. :P

Abraided Leather

Ok shameless plug post. I have been a member of my local munch group for quite awhile now and I have met many many wonderful people there. One of my favorite people is Mr. A of Abraided Leather. This man is seriously amazing. He is a very nice, friendly guy who is always willing to strike up a conversation or answer a question. In addition to his sparkling personality, he is also a skilled leather worker. He offers a variety of leather and imitation BDSM toys. I am absolutely in love with his floggers. His pieces are beautiful, well made, and very reasonably priced. Whats not to love? :P

Not only does he offer stock pieces, he does custom orders as well. He can make just about anything in any color. It is truly amazing. I suggest that anyone looking for affordable quality toys check out his site or if you are in the area, hit him up at a munch. He is almost always there. Plus he usually raffles off a toy or two at the munches with the profits going to the Humane Society. Talk about a great reason to part with a few bucks. :)

In conclusion, I guess I just can't say enough about Mr. A and his amazing work. He is a great guy with a great hobby. Check out his site at: http://www.abraided.com/
You will be glad you did. :)

Too Busy...

Lately I have been neglecting my blog. I guess I have plenty of excuses, and I really have been busy, but mostly its laziness. I really haven't felt like writing lately. Alot has been happening and I got behind...which made me put off catching up, which of course, put me further behind.

Things have been going well with M. She is very sweet and wonderful. I don't know how I got along without her before. She came down a few weeks ago and stayed with me overnight. It was wonderful. I spanked her until her entire ass was bright red and covered in hand print welts. :) It was fantastic. She is so sensitive, I had her squirming in no time. It was also the first time I fell asleep with her in my arms and I can't tell you how wonderful that was.

After she stayed with me I went home with her and stayed a few days. It was really nice because I met her fiance and their friends. We got to spend more time together and she showed me her favorite places in her hometown. We had a small incident the second day I was there. I had told her to kneel on the floor without moving or talking for one minute as a punishment for brattiness (of which she is guilty of quite a bit). She refused to do it, so I left her to pout on the bed while I sat in a chair and smoked, waiting for her to obey. After a few minutes she realized I wasn't going to give in to her pouting and knelt on the floor. Her one minute had been upped to six for disobedience. I timed her and after her punishment was up I pulled her onto the bed and held her and we talked over what had happened. I think that she is testing me as much as I am testing her. I know that she has had other Dommes in the past that have given in or failed to be Dominant and that has made her wary of me. I think that she is beginning to trust that even though strict protocol isn't my style I still have certain expectations of behavior that I will not budge on. Complete obedience to commands is one of those things.

When I got home from staying with M, I used clothespins on her breasts for the first time. After we got to my house the night she dropped me off, she ended up staying pretty late. I used my multi-colored pins to make a matching a flower pattern on both of her breasts. It looked wonderful and I wish I had taken a picture.

Hopefully M will be able to come stay with me the first weekend of June. I want to take her to the Munch and show her off to my friends. Also I hope to have a special surprise for her, but since she will probably read this I won't write what it is. I just hope she likes it as much as I think she will. :)

Well that is all the catching up I feel like tonight. Maybe I will write about my first date with M sometime in the future. It was a very interesting night.

Munch Recap

So the 18-30 group was a bust for me. I got roped into playing card games with a really bossy girl the whole time. I couldn't hardly get a word in edge-wise with anyone, even Sir, without her butting in and telling me something about the game. When I tried to stay out of the second game she dealt me in anyway. Normally I enjoy card games, but I didn't want to play with that girl. I felt bad for the submissive across from me. She was in the same position I was. And neither of us was rescued because her Dom and Sir were busy talking to each other. I don't think either knew that we were anxious to get out of the game.

I am still glad we went though. Sir had a good time. I don't think I've ever seen Him so talkative and outgoing in a group of people. He is definitely the strong silent type usually. I am really happy that He got a chance to open up and get to know some other people in the area. If we do decide to go again, hopefully it will be a little bit better for me. At least now I know to avoid the "Card Nazi". :P

Another New Munch

This afternoon Sir and I are planning to attend the 18-30 munch group that meets in our new area. So far the BDSM community age average seems to be mid-30s or so. I'm really hoping that we will get to meet some people closer to our age range.

I will probably ramble an update when we get back...unless things take a very unexpected turn in the naughty direction. Honestly I doubt it, but I can always hope.

Picnic in the Park

Sir and I were both able to attend the local munch picnic this past Tuesday. It was tons of fun and we were really happy that we attended. They even had a few local vendors. Sir bought me some fully adjustable C style nipple clamps. As well as 55 new clothespins in various shapes, colors, and sizes. It was a great treat.

The cheeseburgers were delicious. We had fresh grilled onions on ours. It was the best burger I've had in a long time. And for desert Sir and I watched a few people fly a kite with their nipples. It was a very interesting experience. I wish I would have tried it, but I hadn't done it before and was worried about embarrassing Sir if I wasn't very good at it. Besides I can always put it on my to-do list for the future.

The people we met were all very friendly. It was nice to get together with other kinky people for some social interaction and naughty fun. I hope we get to attend many more get-togethers like that in the near future.

P.S. Yes those tits are real and they are mine. :)

Back Again

So I'm back. Alot has happened in the last couple weeks. Long story short, Sir and I are living in Washington state now. At the moment we are staying with his family until we can get our own place. Hopefully it will be soon.

We had originally planned to move to Texas, and we did. But, it was not meant to be. Although we did have an amazing threesome while we were there...but more about that in another post. This is just an update post to get me back in the habit of writing.

Both of us want to get involved in the BDSM community here. There is a picnic in a local park tomorrow evening that I want to attend. I'm just nervous about going and not knowing anyone. Besides that, I don't have any money to buy or make a side dish or drinks. I don't want to feel like a mooch, but a couple people have invited me to come anyway so maybe I will be able to screw up my courage and go. If not I do plan on attending the local munch this weekend.

Sir will be able to go with me to that munch. He won't be able to make the picnic because He has a temp job power-washing rust off of the undercarriage of trucking trailers. Its a dirty job, but we gotta have money and He isn't too proud when it comes to our lives. I'm very proud of Him and everything He is doing to support us.

I guess thats all for now. I'm gonna go put out some more job applications. I mean really the law of averages can't be wrong, one of them will pay off.

Paradox!

Sir and I went to Paradox tonight. It was amazing. Everyone was so friendly and helpful. We both felt so relaxed and at home. I can't wait until the next munch. It will just be a small meeting before the big opening of Club Paradox. It is a BDSM only club that is open just for the local community. It is going to be so amazing. Well I'm sleepy, so I guess thats all!

Amazing Author

As I have stated before, I love books. I'm quite the bibliophile. Last night our Munch hosted a Q&A with an amazing local author who has been in our community for many years. Her name is TammyJo Eckhart and I highly recommend her to anyone who enjoys BDSM erotica.

I have read a couple of her books. She writes a variety of different genres. The book I am currently enjoying is called Servants of Destiny. It is a Sci-fi Femdom novel set in a world that is like medieval England, but with magic and a strict caste system. TammyJo has her degrees in Ancient History, so her descriptions of the world her characters inhabit is very realistic and believable. They are truely a pleasure to read. For more about TammyJo and her books, I recommend you check out her site at:
http://www.kiva.net/~teckhart/

The Bestest Little Day!

Today Sir decided it was Little Day for me. First we went to the store and got all my favorite candy so I could hide it in my really big purse and take it to the movies. Then He took me to IHOP. I got lotsa pancakes and hash browns. My favorites! After that He took me to the movies to see Coraline. It was sooooo great! I loved the movie and I got a code to try to win shoes like her's from the movie. Then we went to the mall and I got a new wallet since my old one was 5 years old and falling apart. My new one is grey and has Gir from Invader Zim on it so it matches my big purse. Last, we went to the Munch and I got to hang out with my friends and Sir at the same time. I love when He goes with me.

Also while we were out, Sir got a new game for Him to play. Our bedtime ritual is playing video games. I love to watch Him play. He picks RPGs so it is like watching a bedtime story. I love it so much. Its so nice to be cuddled next to Him watching Him play. Its been a really great day, and best of all, I know we will have lots like it!

Fun Time on Sunday

Yesterday was lots of fun. I had two coupons for Borders that expired on the 19th so Sir took me to the bookstore. It was amazing. I saved so much money and got three new books. I love book shopping so much! I also got a new set of earrings. They are just silver and blue hoops, but having new jewelry makes me care a little bit more about how I look. New clothes and new makeup are like that too. Sometimes just looking better makes me feel better about myself. Besides, its really nice when we can actually afford to spend money on things that aren't absolutely necessary.

After shopping, Sir dropped me off at the restaurant for the submissives discussion group. There were only 6 of us this time, but we had a really great time. The topic this week was communication. There were some really insightful answers and I really liked hearing about some other people's experiences. It was very nice to be able to sit and talk about the "taboo" part of my life with friends who understand. Sometimes I hate hiding things, but I know that in most cases it is necessary. It is worth every hardship to have the life I am living now with Sir. It really is my dream and it is worth everything to me.

I am happier now than I have been in years, perhaps more than I've ever been. And more importantly, so is Sir. I haven't felt a touch of my old depression in weeks. I know I shouldn't worry, but I wonder if it will last. I think that this time it will, but I know how naive that sounds. I guess I will just have to put my worries aside and focus on being the best I can be for Sir and making both of us as happy as possible.

Everything Is Wonderful

I really don't have anything new to report, but I know that if I get in the habit of not posting every couple of days I will forget to post at all. Sir and I are still doing great. Its tough now that He is back in school again, but it is His last semester. He should be graduating in May. I'm so proud of Him. He has been working so hard. I'm also excited because it means I will be able to go back to school in the Fall. He is going to try to get into grad school at the college I am going to so that we can be together. I can't wait to get back into the swing of things again.

What else? Well I have my submissives meeting this Sunday. It should be fun, although I have been getting more and more nervous about driving lately. Its only a 30 min drive and traffic isn't usually too bad so I'm trying not to worry too much. I think Sir and I might also go to the Paradox group meeting this Saturday if He isn't too busy. I haven't been to that one before, but it should be fun.

Well, I guess thats it really. Nothing really new to report.

An interesting Incident

Saturday afternoon I caught a ride to another Munch in the state with the leader of my local Munch. I'll call him Mr. M. I drove to our Munch meeting place to meet him since I didn't know how to get to the other Munch and it was almost a 2 hour drive to get there. Mr. M was giving me and another girl a ride. We had a great time on the drive up. I didn't really know the other girl very well so it was nice to get to know each other. We got to the Munch and had a fun time. I was the youngest person there. We drove back to town. Since we were early getting back we stopped by an adult store so Mr. M could pick up some things for his slave.

We were still ahead of schedule when we left there, so we went to Mr. M's apartment to hang out for awhile. We sat around and talked for an hour or two. Mr. M brought out a corset he was telling the other girl about for her to try on. It didn't fit her, but it fit me perfectly. After that she took off the rest of her clothes and sat around in her panties. I put my bra on and sat on the couch with her. Mr. M came over and had her straddle my lap. I sucked on her breasts while he flogged her back. I moved my hand to her pussy and fingered her clit while he continued to flog her. He went to put his finger in her and felt mine there already. He chuckled and went back to flogging her. Right before she came he choked her. She came hard on my hand and moaned loudly.

After she came twice like that, she collapsed next to me on the couch. I cuddled her while Mr. M smiled and chuckled while he watched from across the room. After a brief break, he pulled out a purple vibrator. I smiled and took it from him. I knelt on the floor in front of her and slid it inside her pussy. I fucked her pussy while I licked her clit. Mr. M talked to us while I did it, telling her how much of a slut she was and that she liked feeling me licking her. I started to fuck her pussy harder when I could tell she was close to cumming. He continued to whisper in her ear and bite her neck. He choked her again when she came.

We continued to take turns fingering her and making her cum for another hour. Finally I said I needed to get home. Mr. M took me to my car. I thanked them both for a wonderful time. I had so much fun. I can hardly believe it was real. That was by far the best Saturday I've had in a long time!

Sick

I'm sick yet again. I don't really feel like writing alot today, but I feel guilty for not posting for a few days. I'm still jobless which sucks, but I've been to a couple interviews so I'm hopeful. I hope I'm feeling better by tomorrow. I'm supposed to go to SubSpace, the submissives meeting held by my Munch group. I will go unless I'm dying, it would just be nice to feel good too.

What a Drag!

Ok playing catch up again. Friday I went to the Friday Munch with Lori. I had alot of fun and met some new people. After the Munch we decided to go to the local gay club, Connections. I called my husband and asked if it was ok with him. He was reluctant to let me go, but said it was ok as long as I was reasonably behaved...

Anyway, I went and had a blast. One of the main events at the club was the drag queen shows. I loved it! The drag queens they had were awesome. They had dancing, lip-synching, and stand-up comedy. It was great. One of the guys in our group handed me a dollar and took me up to the stage to tip my first drag queen. After the show I hit the dance floor with some of my group mates and danced for awhile. I haven't danced with other people forever. Needless to say I had a great time.

Saturday I took my husband to his first Munch. I had fun, but I don't know if he did or not. He just sat there the whole time without talking very much. I asked him what he thought and he just shrugged and said it was fine. Oh well, at least he went. I was glad he came and got to meet some of the people I meet with. All in all I guess it was a pretty good weekend.

Catch Up

Ok I know I've been bad. I've been neglecting to post. *slaps hand* Bad girl. Anyway, so I went to the Munch Saturday. I am sooooo glad I did! It was so much fun. I got to meet so many new people. I don't remember all the names, but in my defense I was a little overwhelmed. I hope no one gets offended. I fully plan on going to the next one on Friday and the Early Bloomers Munch for 18-35 year olds on Saturday afternoon. I think my husband might go with me, but I'm not sure. He still isn't really comfortable with it yet.

For me, finding others into BDSM was an epiphany. I felt like I found a place to meet others and feel less alone. For my husband it isn't. He is still uncomfortable with the lifestyle and his feelings about being Dominated. I am hoping to help him be more comfortable with it and accept it. Its just hard because he spent most of his life pretending he didn't need anything or anyone. It makes it hard for him to open up to others and be himself. Little by little he is getting more comfortable and suprises me daily. I can't help but be proud of him.

Best Buddies!

So I went to a pre-munch lunch to get to know my Buddy Lori better. I'm so glad I did. She is so awesome. We met at the mall at 3:30 and got Subway. Then we sat around and talked until seven. It was so amazing to meet someone I had so much in common with. She was so fun and easy to talk to. We made plans to meet early this Saturday before the Munch so we can get good seats and I can meet some of her friends. I'm really looking forward to it.

Lunch Anyone?

I have a lunch meeting on Wednesday with my Munch Buddy Lori. I'm excited and nervous. I hope we get along. It should be fun.