Tuesday, October 20, 2009

New Developments

So Sir got His test results back from His AFOQT. In short He did amazing. He had top scores on all the portions of the test. I knew He would do well, but I am still so proud of Him.

The bad news is that the decision board for Officer Candidate School had been pushed back from December to March. So we are looking at another 6-9 months until He gets through Basic and receives His permanent station. Which means we are going to have to struggle through more months of little money and no health care. Its enough to make me want to tear my hair out. I'm so sick of always trying to play catch up to stay alive and off the streets.

Really there is not much else to say. Its just hard for us right now. We haven't been doing much because of all the stress lately and the lack of funds. Our sex life is really suffering because we are staying with my parents until we can afford to move out. It just seems like everything is unnecessarily difficult right now. We try so hard to get ahead and just keep getting shut down.

I hate how this blog is starting to be less about my BDSM life (which was the original intention) and more about my other life problems. I just feel like I need a place to vent since I only see my friends once a month at most. I just feel so isolated and I need someone other than Sir to talk with. He is just as frustrated and stressed as I am and it doesn't help to bitch constantly. I wish I didn't have as much to bitch about honestly.

Tuesday, October 6, 2009


So yeah I've been neglecting to write, but mostly because there hasn't been anything to write about. I just started work at GameStop again. At least now I can do the same humiliating and frustrating work for $2 more an hour than the last time I was there. The lack of hours that are available is pretty shitty, but at least its gonna keep us alive until next spring.

Right now Sir is 2 hours away staying in a hotel so that He can be ready to take His AFOQT at 5 am. I know it is important for Him to be gone, but its hard. Except for that rough patch last year we have never spent a night apart, let alone three. At least He will be home Thursday. I miss Him alot, but I am super proud of Him for working so hard to give us a better life. I know He will do well on the test, I just hope He gets the best score in the bunch.

Nothing else is really going on right now. My birthday is this Saturday. I am trying to persuade myself not to get excited. One of my friends and her man want to get Sir and I a hotel suite for the weekend so we can have some privacy to play. I told them to feel free to come along and I really hope they do. It would be nice to have a group scene for once.