Thursday, September 30, 2010

Standing Still

Things are still at a stand still in my life. I have filed the divorce papers, but I have to wait 60 days for it to be final. Bear and I are still on pause as well. I feel like I am just waiting for everything right now. However, I don't mind it as much as I would have once. I feel like it is a much needed lesson in patience. I appreciate the chance to test my ability to wait and curb some of the impulsiveness I have been developing in the last few years. It is difficult, but I am managing pretty well.

There is really nothing else to say other than waiting, waiting, and waiting some more. :)

Saturday, September 11, 2010


Between preparing everything for the divorce, school, and packing I am thoroughly exhausted. I have a ton of things to do and not much time to do them. I am also essentially broke until I get my student loan refund which should be next week. I just hope I can get everything to come together. Preferably before I collapse. I am so thankful I have Bear to help me with everything. Even though we are not technically dating or doing anything naughty, we are still close. I can't wait until I am moved out and settled on my own as a single woman. I only hope everything goes well. Wish me luck.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010


Sir and I are getting a divorce. We have been separated and sleeping apart for over a month. All that needs to be done is filing the paperwork and getting my things ready to move out. It will take another two or three months to get it finalized. We have just grown apart. Because of the pending divorce I have told Bear that we need to take a break for awhile until I get settled in a new place and get steady work.

Friday, September 3, 2010

The Other Half of My Soul

I have found the other half of my soul. I'm not really sure how I lived before. The moment I met him we connected. His name is Bear. It was incredible. I never realized how incomplete I felt before. We are perfect for each other. He is a slave and he definitely brings out my Domme side. I couldn't have asked for a more perfect person. He is everything I have been missing in my life. We have not spent a day apart yet. I dread it because it is hard enough being apart for a few hours. When we are together I don't want to let him go. I always feel so content when he is near me and when we part it feels wrong. He soothes me like no one else ever has and when we are together I feel whole.