Saturday, February 21, 2009

Paradox!

Sir and I went to Paradox tonight. It was amazing. Everyone was so friendly and helpful. We both felt so relaxed and at home. I can't wait until the next munch. It will just be a small meeting before the big opening of Club Paradox. It is a BDSM only club that is open just for the local community. It is going to be so amazing. Well I'm sleepy, so I guess thats all!

Monday, February 16, 2009

A Great Time

Well we are back from our vacation. I had a blast. I loved getting to see all of the monuments and the museums. I am a total history nerd, so getting to spend two days touring the Smithsonians was incredible. I got so many good pictures.

On our last night in the hotel, I prepared a Valentine's Day surprise for Sir. First I took a shower to scrub myself and shave my legs and pussy clean. Then He got in the shower and I put on my short pleated black skirt and my black satin bra with the corset style front. Next I laid all of our sex toys out on a towel on the bed next to me.

When He got out of the shower He replaced my collar around my neck and smiled when He saw my preparations. He shoved me on my back and teased me with His cock head for awhile. When I was really wet He grabbed the biggest vibrator and put it in me. Then He started playing with the settings, going from high to low and then stopping in the middle before going between again. It was driving me crazy. When He could tell I was really excited, He laid down and started to lick my clit. I went wild. It was so amazing. He kept taking me to the edge then stopping before I came. After what seemed like an eternity, He didn't stop. Instead He encouraged me by licking faster. Needless to say, I had what was probably the best orgasm of my life. It was so amazing.

After I had recovered a bit and Sir had wiped His face clean, it was His turn. I started by licking His face, then His cock clean. He was already rock hard and I know that He doesn't like to waste time, so I laid in His favorite position and He slowly sunk His cock into me.

He started off gently and gradually increased the pace until He was fucking me as hard as I could take. He held me down by my throat and kept cutting off more and more of my air as he got ready to cum. He came in me so hard that I could feel it flood my pussy. I couldn't breathe, but I didn't care. I just kept fucking back until all his cum was inside me. Then He let go of my throat and kissed my forehead. I thanked Him like I always do when He cums in or on me then cleaned His cock with my mouth.

After that we cleaned up. He tucked me in and we snuggled watching Star Wars together until I fell asleep. It was a great vacation. :D

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Valentine's Vacation

Sir has surprised me with the best V-day ever! We are going on a vacation! He is taking me to Washington D.C. for the weekend. We are going to stay in a hotel on the national mall the first night, then travel to another hotel with its own private beach the second night. I am soooooo excited. Sir knows how much I love museums and He has promised to spend most of our time browsing the Smithsonians! I just can't wait!

Well I guess I better get to bed. We are leaving tomorrow afternoon and I still have alot to do.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Orgasm Trouble

I have always had trouble with orgasms. Not the ones I give myself, but ones that others try to give me. Until I met Sir I had never had a penetration orgasm. And trust me, I had had plenty of sex before I met Him. I started to wonder for awhile if there wasn't a problem with me. I had never heard of anyone not having an orgasm if they enjoyed the sex. Which I always did. I've always been quite the nymphomaniac. I could never get enough.

I had never had problems masturbating either. I have been giving myself orgasms since I was eight. The problem always seemed to come around when I tried to have one with a man. Before Sir, I had been with many men and some women. Never had penetration alone given me an orgasm. However, I have had many whenever I have received oral sex.

After I met Sir and He gave me my first real penetration orgasm, I thought I was in heaven. I didn't think it would be a problem anymore. I knew better than to expect them constantly, but I thought that they would still happen pretty frequently. And they do...under one condition: I must not want oral sex. Whenever my body decides it needs oral sex, everything else that is sex related goes out the window. I cannot even masturbate very successfully.

This boggles my mind. I cannot understand why this happens. I am so turned on all the time, but I cannot orgasm. I thought that maybe it was a mental block, but I don't see how that could be when I am so horny and want it so much.

I don't think all this would really be a problem except for one thing: Sir doesn't like to perform oral sex on women. He says that sometimes it is ok, but for the most part He doesn't go near it. He doesn't even really like to touch me there (except with His cock obviously). This bothers me quite alot. He swears that it isn't anything to do with me specifically, He has never liked it. I believe Him, I just don't know what to do about it.

I feel silly to say that I need oral sex, but I don't know what else to think. My entire body aches at the thought and nothing else will suffice. I'm in agony when I think of it because I am constantly turned on. I just want it to stop. I'm sick of feeling like I have no control over my own body. I'm angry and tired and horny all the time because of it, and it is starting to strain my relationship with Sir. I don't want to pressure Him or make Him feel bad in any way. But it seems that I can't help it. I beg Him for hours to fuck me, then when He does I don't really get anything out of it. It is trying His patience and I am sick of it as well. He tells me He doesn't mind, but I still feel guilty. I'm at the end of my rope here. I feel like if I don't get some release soon, I will go crazy, but I would rather die than nag Sir into it...especially since He doesn't enjoy it. I guess I'm just at a loss.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Story Time Again

This is actually two stories written about one very long morning. I decided to post them together because they really are better together and I don't really know when the next time I feel like posting my stories will be. So here I present to you: "Good Morning: Parts 1 & 2"

She slowly came awake; trying to figure out what was waking her. She smiled as she felt His hands petting her hair. She quickly opened her eyes and met His gaze. "Aw, I was trying not to wake you up sweetheart," He said quietly, "You are just too beautiful. Daddy couldn't keep his hands off you." She smiled as her heart nearly burst with love for Him. "It's ok Daddy. If you're awake I wanna be awake too," she said smiling brightly. "I know baby girl, you are so good to your Daddy," He said smiling back.

He pulled her close to His body, feeling her soft naked flesh against His hairy chest. She laughed and squirmed as He tickled her sides gently. In one quick motion, she reached down and grasped Him between the legs. He gasped and said, "Well I guess that’s one way to get out of a good tickle." She only laughed and started to stroke Him.

"Oh no you don't missy," He proclaimed, taking her hand off of His already rigid cock. "I'm gonna have my breakfast first." With a wicked smile, He rolled her onto her back and chuckled at her confused expression. Without taking His eyes off of hers He began to slowly kiss her smooth belly and trace His fingers up and down her sides. He continued to kiss her, moving down to her thighs. Understanding suddenly dawned on her face, and He chuckled and gave her the smile that always melted her heart.

"That’s right baby, Daddy is gonna take real good care of you this morning," He said before returning to her now quivering thigh. She gasped as He reached her pubic mound and kissed it lightly. She raised her hips to His face as He started to pull away. He kissed her again and said, "Eager this morning, huh? Well that’s just fine darling. I want you to enjoy it." She gasped as He kissed her again, this time a little lower and not nearly as soft. "I love you with all my heart Daddy," she said in a wavering voice. "Daddy loves you too sweetheart. You're my little angel," He told her as He drew closer to her already wet pussy.

He nuzzled His nose into the soft hair lining her opening. She moaned lightly and again pushed her hips toward his face. He slowly stuck His tongue out and tasted her wet slit. She moaned more insistently as she felt His tongue against her. Without waiting any longer, He plunged His tongue between her slippery lips and probed deeper into her. As He dragged His tongue up her slit He reached up and pulled the hood back, exposing her tender clit. He felt her gasp as the cool air played across her sensitive clit. Slowly He flicked His tongue across the tiny bump and smiled at the rush of wetness from her already soaked pussy.

"Do you wanna cum for Daddy already little one?" He asked, lifting his mouth from her. "Yes Daddy," she replied in a soft voice. Without waiting another second He returned His lips to her dripping slit and began to lap up her sweet juices. She moaned even harder as his tongue traveled lower and began to dart in and out of her. He pressed His nose against her throbbing clit as He continued to fuck her with His tongue.

"I'm gonna cum Daddy!" she exclaimed as He worked even faster inside of her. With a loud moan she jerked as the orgasm ripped through her body. He felt her pussy tighten on His tongue, but continued to slide in and out of her, lapping up the rush of juices. She moaned again as a second orgasm tore through her already shaking body.

"That’s my girl," He said, kissing her pussy lips as He licked up the remaining cum from her. "Oh Daddy, I love you so much. You are so good to me," she said panting as He moved back up the bed to lie next to her. "And you are my sweet angel," He said, wrapping His arms around her shaking frame. Slowly she turned toward Him and licked her juices from His face. Neither of them could ever remember being happier. He sighed as He felt her warm tongue darting across His face. He pulled her even closer and kissed her forehead as she drifted back off to sleep. With a smile, He closed His eyes and followed her example. Soon both of them were sound asleep again, both with identical smiles of satisfaction on their faces as they lay together.

Part 2

She opened her eyes a little and looked over at Him. Good, Daddy was still asleep. Carefully she eased up, being extra careful not to wake Him. This time it was His turn for a morning surprise.

She scooted down the bed and leaned toward Him, but before she could get her mouth anywhere near Daddy's cock, she heard Him. "And just what do you think you're doing little girl?" He asked without opening His eyes. She breathed a heavy sigh. "I thought You were asleep Daddy," she replied. "How do You always know everything?" He chuckled. "Because I'm your Daddy sweetheart. Knowing everything is my job. Now come give Daddy a kiss," He said.

She sprung up the bed and gave Him a big kiss. As she started to pull away she felt His hands hold her to Him and His tongue part her lips. Eagerly she kissed Him back. She always loved it when Daddy kissed her like this, crushing her whole body to His, feeling His tongue probing her mouth and twining around her tongue.

As they kissed He ran His hand down her side and between her legs. She gasped at His touch and tried to pull away. "Relax baby girl, I'm just seeing how wet you are for your Daddy," He said in a gentle tone. Instantly she relaxed against Him and let His fingers explore her slit. She could tell she was very wet already and His fingers were only making her wetter. She could tell by His grunt that He was surprised she was already so wet. "I was gonna surprise you Daddy, before You woke up," she murmured into His ear. "And just what was my angel gonna do for her Daddy?" He asked, sounding amused.

"I was gonna suck my Daddy's big hard cock until He woke up enough to really enjoy it," she said seriously. "I want You to cum hard in my mouth Daddy." He smiled as He said, "Well baby, don’t let me stop you." With a grin she kissed Him quickly on the cheek and began to scoot back down the bed towards His now rock hard cock.

She ran her hands down His thighs as she watched His already hard cock get bigger. Slowly she ran her hands up the insides of His thighs, savoring how He was already breathing heavy in anticipation. She moved her right hand towards His balls and gently squeezed them. He let out a gasp of pleasure when He felt her hand cup him and her fingers gently pushing against Him. She slid her other hand around the base of His cock. She could already see pre-cum on the tip. She quickly darted her tongue out to taste it. She loved the way her Daddy tasted, so salty and warm. He heard Daddy gasp as her wet little tongue touched His sensitive head.

"That’s my girl. Suck Daddy's cock baby," He whispered. She felt herself get even wetter as He whispered to her. She loved to suck Daddy. She wrapped her lips around His cock. She always loved the way it felt, the skin so soft, but hard and tight and warm to the touch. He groaned as He felt her warm little mouth around Him. She began to move up and down His shaft, flicking her tongue across it as she did. He could feel the waves of pleasure radiating through Him each time her lips traveled across His sensitive shaft. As she sucked she gently massaged His balls in her other hand. She tightened her grip around the thick base of His shaft and felt His whole cock start to throb in her mouth. Quickly she began to increase her speed on His shaft. She could feel His cock jerking in her mouth as she began to suck harder and faster, running her tongue up and down the underside of His cock.

"That’s it baby, don’t stop. Daddy's gonna cum," He moaned. She could feel Him breathing hard and pumping His hips against her face as she sucked His cock even faster. With a loud moan He thrust into her mouth and came. She could feel His thick hot cum filling her mouth as she greedily swallowed it down. She continued to milk the cum from His throbbing cock until there was none left. Quickly she removed her mouth and began to lick Him clean. "That’s my good little girl. Clean Daddy's cock," He said as she continued to lick Him.

With a smile she crawled back up to Him and lay in His arms. He kissed her hair and told her with quiet whispers how proud He was and how much He loved His little girl. "Now Daddy is gonna do something for you baby. Do you want Daddy to cum inside you?" He asked. "Yes Daddy," she replied in a whisper. "Then come here baby," He said, tugging her on top of Him. She was amazed to see that He was already getting hard again. He noticed her looking at His quickly hardening cock. "That’s right baby; see how much Daddy wants you?"

She gasped as she felt Him grab her ass and lift her onto Him. She sat straddling Him. They could both feel her juices running down her legs and onto Him. "Daddy loves His little angel," He said quietly, "and now Daddy wants her to feel good and cum for Him. Can you cum for Daddy baby?" "Oh yes Daddy," she replied breathlessly, "I wanna cum all over Your hard cock."

He gasped as He felt her lower herself onto Him. She felt His cock grow even harder inside of her warm, wet little pussy. She began to pump her hips against Him, feeling Him thrust into her, softly at first then harder as they found a rhythm. She began to moan louder as He thrust deeper inside her soft wet pussy. "That’s right baby; you like it when Daddy fucks your tight little pussy don’t you?" He said as she thrust even harder against Him. "Yes Daddy, fuck me harder!" she cried.

She could feel the orgasm building fast inside of her. With a moan she yelled out, "Yes Daddy! I'm cumming, I'm cumming! Oh Daaadddyyy!" He gasped as He felt her pussy tighten almost painfully on His cock. He felt her juices run down Him as she continued to thrust her hips against Him. He could feel her orgasm shake her body. She could feel His cock huge and throbbing inside of her.

One more thrust and she heard Him call out with a moan, "Oh yeah baby. Daddy's gonna cum too!" She felt the thick, hot ropes of cum fill her already throbbing pussy. As His cum shot inside her, she felt another orgasm overtake her. He gasped again as He felt her tighten on His cock again. She slumped forward, His cock still inside her. "That’s my girl, that’s Daddy's good girl," He whispered to her as the aftershocks of their orgasms rippled throughout them both. He petted her hair and kissed her forehead. She sighed in contentment and rolled off of Him. She wrapped her arms around His neck and kissed Him softly. He held her close as she drifted back to sleep. His heart ached with love as He watched her sleep, nestled comfortably in His arms. He held her tight. She was, and always would be, His little girl.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Amazing Author

As I have stated before, I love books. I'm quite the bibliophile. Last night our Munch hosted a Q&A with an amazing local author who has been in our community for many years. Her name is TammyJo Eckhart and I highly recommend her to anyone who enjoys BDSM erotica.

I have read a couple of her books. She writes a variety of different genres. The book I am currently enjoying is called Servants of Destiny. It is a Sci-fi Femdom novel set in a world that is like medieval England, but with magic and a strict caste system. TammyJo has her degrees in Ancient History, so her descriptions of the world her characters inhabit is very realistic and believable. They are truely a pleasure to read. For more about TammyJo and her books, I recommend you check out her site at:
http://www.kiva.net/~teckhart/

Friday, February 6, 2009

The Bestest Little Day!

Today Sir decided it was Little Day for me. First we went to the store and got all my favorite candy so I could hide it in my really big purse and take it to the movies. Then He took me to IHOP. I got lotsa pancakes and hash browns. My favorites! After that He took me to the movies to see Coraline. It was sooooo great! I loved the movie and I got a code to try to win shoes like her's from the movie. Then we went to the mall and I got a new wallet since my old one was 5 years old and falling apart. My new one is grey and has Gir from Invader Zim on it so it matches my big purse. Last, we went to the Munch and I got to hang out with my friends and Sir at the same time. I love when He goes with me.

Also while we were out, Sir got a new game for Him to play. Our bedtime ritual is playing video games. I love to watch Him play. He picks RPGs so it is like watching a bedtime story. I love it so much. Its so nice to be cuddled next to Him watching Him play. Its been a really great day, and best of all, I know we will have lots like it!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Poly Thoughts

For over a year now, Sir and I have been discussing poly. Even before He collared me, we toyed with the idea of adding another woman to our relationship. I have been a bisexual as long as I can remember having sexual feelings, so it adding a woman, even just as an occasional play-partner, has always appealed to me. And of course it is every straight man's fantasy, so it appeals to Sir as well. Now that I am collared, the idea of a "subbie sister" appeals even more.

I know that many people warn of the dangers of a poly relationship, but I believe I could handle it. I know I am capable of loving two people at once. I have been in love like that before. I think that for it to work, we would just have to find someone who is compatible with both of us. That will be the hardest part. Jealousy is not a problem for me. I know my place and am completely confident in Sir. I just don't know if we could find another woman who shares this trait.

I would love to find another little submissive into D/s and domestic service. Sir has agreed that it would be perfect to find another who is like me in these ways. Someone I can play with in both sexual and non-sexual ways, who shares my love of serving Him. I only hope that we can one day find someone in our area that fits that description. We aren't actively looking, but hopefully we can just happen into the perfect third to complement our couple.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Really Little

I don't know how it is for most littles, but for me my "age" fluctuates. I feel anywhere from 2 to 40 and it is almost always different every day. However, recently I noticed that I get "stuck" sometimes. During these times I usually stay about the same age for a long time. Its not really noticeable to me, except for the extremely rare times when I am stuck at a very young age and am not really comfortable with speech.

That is what has kept me from writing recently. I have been stuck with only minimal speaking capabilities for the last couple days. (no speaking means no writing too) I'm not really sure why this happens. I know mentally that I can speak, I still think in words, and if forced I will talk, but if left alone to do as I please, I prefer not to.

Sir has been incredibly understanding with me the last few days. I had forgotten to tell Him about my "silent spells" before I had one. At first He thought I was upset, but I just cuddled with Him, smiled, and poked Him in the bellybutton. After that He knew I was fine and just hugged me and smiled back. He didn't prod me with questions or demand that I talk, He just let me be until I was really able to explain.

I can't tell you how greatful I was and am. Usually I am quiet loquatious, so when I stop talking for a long period of time, people generally get worried and barrage me with questions. It was so nice to just sit in silence and not be bothered. Sometimes quiet can be soothing. Besides I think Sir enjoyed the rest His ears got. :)