Bad Luck

I know I haven't been writing alot lately, but that is mostly due to a month long string of horrible luck. I lost my job, my car died, I got behind in classes because of the job that I lost, I was very sick for over a month, and other smaller crappy things. So long story short things have been pretty terrible here since the end of October. The only bright spot in this whole ordeal has been my Bear. He has been a true blessing and I honestly don't think I would have survived the last few months without him. If I ever do break down and let you read my blog sweetheart, know that you are wonderful and I am grateful the universe saw fit to bring you into my life.

That being said, I need to finish up with schoolwork so I will have to catch everyone up on my first play party with Bear next time I have some "me time".

Will Work For Free

So I have been busy lately as I have stated before. Last weekend I babysat a four year old Saturday and Sunday. It was crazy. He is so energetic. And best of all, I did it for free. I will also be watching him again this coming weekend. My friends who own a bookstore are remodeling this month and they are hanging drywall this week. I offered to help them out for free as well. Also the game store where Sir and I met is moving this month and I might also help them out with that as well. Best of all my munch group has leased a dungeon space. They need volunteers to help get the space refinished and decorated by the first week of August. I am supposed to go help out this Friday. All in all, it is going to be a very busy week.

In addition to all the free labor I am offering this month, I am also still getting everything together for our move and for school at the end of August. I hate packing and I am royally sick of packing up everything we own. Especially since we are only moving 30 minutes away. I wish there were magical packing faeries. That way I could just leave out some milk, bread, and honey and not have to pack a thing. :P

All Work and No Play

I haven't been writing much because not much is happening. I've been busy at work. Its amazing to me how I can have nothing new going on, but be so tired all the time. My life has been one big monotonous blur lately. I sleep, work, then sleep some more.

One of the only interesting parts of work is the co-worker I close with. I'll call him Steve. He is incredibly cute and sweet. He is in the same position I am right now; trying to make as much money as possible by working a crappy part-time job. We get along really well. I told him that he is welcome to come by and hang out when Sir and I get our own place. I hope he does. Neither of us have any friends here in town. I am just so sick of being lonely. I need a friend. Besides maybe if Sir starts sleeping with one of the young cuties He works with I can do the same with Steve. :P

I guess the good news is that Sir and I have been approved for an apartment that we can barely afford. We are supposed to move in this weekend so hopefully everything will go well. It will be so nice to have our own place again. I'm so tired of hiding everything from my parents, and even more tired of keeping our sex completely vanilla. What I wouldn't give to get one long, thorough beating.

Busy Busy Bee

Lately I have been so busy with my new job. I have been switching between first, second, and third shifts since I started and it has not been easy for me to actually get some rest or get anything else done for that matter. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't complain, after all I did beg for a job, but no matter how much I enjoy my work I am so drained lately. I haven't really slept or eaten since I started. I am hoping it will get better when my training is over and I settle into my permanent hours.

The 13th was mine and Sir's wedding anniversary. We spent the day together. We didn't really do anything extra special, just alot of time together and lots of sex. I had checked out some porn from work for the night and we watched some of it together. It was nice. We haven't had much time to just be together with nothing that has to be done.

It is strange to be in opposite roles for once. Since Sir graduated He has been home while I have been the one going to work all day. He is the one taking care of the house while I earn the money to pay our bills. It doesn't really bother me on a D/s level. Our relationship is not based on our perceived roles in the household alone. No, what bothers me about it is being the breadwinner, the one in charge and responsible for our livelihood. I am not used to the pressure it brings. He makes it look so effortless, perhaps because it is a role He was born into. I don't know. All I know is that I will be relieved when Sir gets His career going and I am no longer accountable for our very lives.

First Day

Today was my first day of work. I had a great time getting to know my co-workers and learning about the store. I really like all my co-workers that I have met so far. It was a great day, but I am exhausted. I plan on writing more later, but for now I need to head to bed.

Hope on the Horizon

Finally after months of unemployment and no prospects I had a job interview yesterday. I am so excited and nervous. I keep telling myself that it doesn't matter so I won't be disappointed if I don't get it, but it is so hard to believe that when I have been wanting a job for so long. There are just so few jobs to be had here. Sir will be graduating college in less than 2 weeks and His last class is Monday. With the end of His school also comes the end of the money and soon the new student loan bills will begin coming due. It frightens me. And even though this job is just a part-time job in a dirty book store, it will be money and a chance to get out of the house. I try not to think what will happen if I can't find a job. Sir assures me over and over that it doesn't matter and He will take care of things. I trust Him, I just worry so much. I don't want to put the pressure entirely on Him. I just want to make His life easier. I know He works so hard to take care of us and I want to help. So here is to hope in the hands of a dirty book store owner. Lets hope they are a hand hold and not a shove over the edge.