Thursday, June 30, 2011

Outdoor Fun

This past weekend the weather was spectacular. And being the arrogant exhibitionist I am I decided that Bear and I would play outside for the first time. He was nervous at first (I have neighbors but there is adequate foliage to block any peeping), but I know him well enough to know that the risk is what makes it exciting for him. He followed me out to the back deck and helped me remove the porch swing from its anchor frame.

I had him strip off his shirt and hold his wrists out so I could bind them together with white silk rope then I secured them over his head to the swing frame. I used my scarf to blindfold him then opened his mouth and put in the gag. I took up my blue suede flogger and started slow. I seldom beat Bear because we are both much more into mental domination. I love it when we do play hard though, mostly because I know he doesn't enjoy the pain alone. He submits and offers his body to me, not for his pleasure, but for mine. It is very touching and it makes me so proud of him. This also means he is vocal when we play and he squirms, which only gives me an excuse to torment him more. It is a wonderful, wicked game that we both enjoy on occasion.

Afterward, I admired the butterfly pattern my strikes marked on his back. I moved closer until I was standing in front of his blindfolded eyes and placed my hands on either side of his face. I spoke to him gently and removed his gag. I could tell he was fine and untied his hands and removed his blindfold. I rubbed his wrists to make sure his blood was circulating and handed him a drink. It was a very enjoyable day outside. :D

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Things To Love... (Pt. 4)

5. His taste in music: It is wonderful that we have such a great musical relationship. Thats not to say that we always agree on every band (No Doubt), or that we are both in the mood for the same thing at the same time (which we rarely are). But we both do have many musical styles and bands in common that we do agree on (60s girl bands rock). Also it is fun to introduce him to new bands (Combichrist, which he loves) and to learn about new bands I had never heard before (Pixies, amazing!). I enjoy sharing and a certain closeness that comes from experiencing something so personal and touching with someone for the the first time.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Kinky Catch Up

I have noticed that other than touting the many wonderful things about my boy I really haven't written anything for months. So I have decided that it is quick update time.

First of all I have been trying to improve my rope skills for my boy. He loves bondage and decorative rope work so I have been learning new knots and experimenting with new designs. Last nite I used white silk rope to make a chest harness and interlocking corset on Bear. It actually looked good and I was bummed I didn't have a camera for documentation. I will have to get my hands on one soon.

Also I have always been curious about lactation and adult nursing. Recently my boy confided that he also had always wanted to try it. So we have been doing research on how to induce lactation even though I have never been pregnant. We have been using the Marmet Technique as well as suckling. So far it seems to be working. No milk yet, but my breasts and nipples are swelling and slightly sore. This is supposed to be normal. I am also considering taking herbs to naturally stimulate as well. Even if I don't have any milk yet, I still enjoy trying very much. Hopefully we will be able to get positive results soon. From the information I have found, it is also helpful that I am on birth control that hormonally simulates pregnancy. This should make it much easier.

My boy is also discovering he can handle much more pain than he thought. We have been experimenting with his pain tolerance to see not only how much punishment he can comfortably take, but also what types of things he prefers. He seems to enjoy the same types of toys I do, floggers and other impact play objects. Also like me, he dislikes stinging toys like canes. He is also able to play quite often. We have been having at least one play session every two or three days instead of once or twice a month. I am extremely proud of him and I can't even begin to describe how much I have really come to love and appreciate him these last few months especially.

I think thats enough for now. Hopefully everything will continue to improve. My vanilla life isn't going nearly as well, but I am still holding out hope for that to improve as well.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Things To Love... (Pt. 3)

4. His stubbornness: Usually this is considered a negative trait, but I don't see it that way. He is very strong willed and if he is insistent about something there is always a good reason. He can be very practical at times and helps to keep my feet on the ground when my mind is several steps ahead. He is always there with gentle reminders to eat or sleep when I have forgotten and he always makes sure I take care of myself when I would be neglectful of my own everyday needs. He knows when to take a stand and is not afraid to question things. He also refuses to let me overwhelm myself or work myself too hard. His stubbornness is a wonderful asset in our relationship and it is another thing I love about my boy.