Friday, November 20, 2009


Lately I've been restless. I keep getting the feeling that I should be doing something, but I can't put my finger on it. I've also been super horny, which does not make it easier to think or focus. I just keep losing interest in things I enjoy. Maybe it is a lack of beatings. I hope that is the problem, its an easy fix. I've just been so fidgety. When I'm home I want to go somewhere, but when I go somewhere I just want to leave. So this will probably be a short post since I'm already sick of typing. :P

I've been driving Sir nuts lately too. I just can't help it. When He's home I just want to fuck and cuddle and have His whole attention. I know its not fair to Him, but I really can't help it. He has been really good about it though. Probably more understanding than I deserve honestly. But that is how He always is. I just hope this manic mood goes away soon. I am sick of always being horny and...well fidgety.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

All Work and No Play

I haven't been writing much because not much is happening. I've been busy at work. Its amazing to me how I can have nothing new going on, but be so tired all the time. My life has been one big monotonous blur lately. I sleep, work, then sleep some more.

One of the only interesting parts of work is the co-worker I close with. I'll call him Steve. He is incredibly cute and sweet. He is in the same position I am right now; trying to make as much money as possible by working a crappy part-time job. We get along really well. I told him that he is welcome to come by and hang out when Sir and I get our own place. I hope he does. Neither of us have any friends here in town. I am just so sick of being lonely. I need a friend. Besides maybe if Sir starts sleeping with one of the young cuties He works with I can do the same with Steve. :P

I guess the good news is that Sir and I have been approved for an apartment that we can barely afford. We are supposed to move in this weekend so hopefully everything will go well. It will be so nice to have our own place again. I'm so tired of hiding everything from my parents, and even more tired of keeping our sex completely vanilla. What I wouldn't give to get one long, thorough beating.