Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Missin' My Daddy

Some days I really miss Daddy. We still talk most days. I just wish He wasn't so far away. I invited Him to come visit for Thanksgiving because He was going to spend it alone. I don't know if He will come or not. My husband and I talked about it and he was ok with Daddy coming to visit for a couple days as long as we don't have sex. I don't think that would be a problem since my husband will be off work and he will be around. I dunno how Daddy will feel about that, but I don't care about the sex, I just wanna see Him. I hope He comes. I don't want anyone I love to spend the holidays alone. No one should have to be alone during the family season.

Maybe I'm just overly concerned because I've never really had a good holiday season before. Now that I am on my own and free to do what I want for the holidays, I want to surround myself with my loved ones. I don't feel obligated to spend alot of time with people I don't want to see. Just because some people are my blood relatives, doesn't mean I have to see them if I don't want to. Well, its just a thought. Wish me luck.

Monday, November 17, 2008

An interesting Incident

Saturday afternoon I caught a ride to another Munch in the state with the leader of my local Munch. I'll call him Mr. M. I drove to our Munch meeting place to meet him since I didn't know how to get to the other Munch and it was almost a 2 hour drive to get there. Mr. M was giving me and another girl a ride. We had a great time on the drive up. I didn't really know the other girl very well so it was nice to get to know each other. We got to the Munch and had a fun time. I was the youngest person there. We drove back to town. Since we were early getting back we stopped by an adult store so Mr. M could pick up some things for his slave.

We were still ahead of schedule when we left there, so we went to Mr. M's apartment to hang out for awhile. We sat around and talked for an hour or two. Mr. M brought out a corset he was telling the other girl about for her to try on. It didn't fit her, but it fit me perfectly. After that she took off the rest of her clothes and sat around in her panties. I put my bra on and sat on the couch with her. Mr. M came over and had her straddle my lap. I sucked on her breasts while he flogged her back. I moved my hand to her pussy and fingered her clit while he continued to flog her. He went to put his finger in her and felt mine there already. He chuckled and went back to flogging her. Right before she came he choked her. She came hard on my hand and moaned loudly.

After she came twice like that, she collapsed next to me on the couch. I cuddled her while Mr. M smiled and chuckled while he watched from across the room. After a brief break, he pulled out a purple vibrator. I smiled and took it from him. I knelt on the floor in front of her and slid it inside her pussy. I fucked her pussy while I licked her clit. Mr. M talked to us while I did it, telling her how much of a slut she was and that she liked feeling me licking her. I started to fuck her pussy harder when I could tell she was close to cumming. He continued to whisper in her ear and bite her neck. He choked her again when she came.

We continued to take turns fingering her and making her cum for another hour. Finally I said I needed to get home. Mr. M took me to my car. I thanked them both for a wonderful time. I had so much fun. I can hardly believe it was real. That was by far the best Saturday I've had in a long time!

Friday, November 14, 2008


I'm sick yet again. I don't really feel like writing alot today, but I feel guilty for not posting for a few days. I'm still jobless which sucks, but I've been to a couple interviews so I'm hopeful. I hope I'm feeling better by tomorrow. I'm supposed to go to SubSpace, the submissives meeting held by my Munch group. I will go unless I'm dying, it would just be nice to feel good too.

Monday, November 10, 2008

What a Drag!

Ok playing catch up again. Friday I went to the Friday Munch with Lori. I had alot of fun and met some new people. After the Munch we decided to go to the local gay club, Connections. I called my husband and asked if it was ok with him. He was reluctant to let me go, but said it was ok as long as I was reasonably behaved...

Anyway, I went and had a blast. One of the main events at the club was the drag queen shows. I loved it! The drag queens they had were awesome. They had dancing, lip-synching, and stand-up comedy. It was great. One of the guys in our group handed me a dollar and took me up to the stage to tip my first drag queen. After the show I hit the dance floor with some of my group mates and danced for awhile. I haven't danced with other people forever. Needless to say I had a great time.

Saturday I took my husband to his first Munch. I had fun, but I don't know if he did or not. He just sat there the whole time without talking very much. I asked him what he thought and he just shrugged and said it was fine. Oh well, at least he went. I was glad he came and got to meet some of the people I meet with. All in all I guess it was a pretty good weekend.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008


Ok I try not to get off topic much here, but sometimes things from my non-BDSM world effect me so much that I have to vent somewhere. I will try to limit myself to a short rant however. So here it is.

I am a bisexual. I am married to a man. I could be just as happy married to a woman. My state does not allow same sex marriage, but I have friends who are gay and live in California where same sex marriage was legal. Emphasis on WAS. Thats right folks, its no longer legal and all the couples who were married legally in California only a few months ago are now not recognized by state law. THIS PISSES ME OFF TO NO END!!!!!!! I wish I could have a shotgun and 5 minutes with every person who voted yes to Prop 8. It just isn't fair! What gives the religious majority the right to decide what someone else's decisions should or should not be. IT IS NOT THIER LIFE!!!!! No one is forcing them to do it, or even like it. What if I suddenly decided that heterosexual marriages offended me? No one would take that away. I guess its true, if you give people enough bibles and guns they eventually cling to those and no one else's rights or beliefs matter.

Ok I'm done now. I hope I didn't offend anyone. These are just my thoughts on the matter, and I wasn't trying to anger anyone out there.

Monday, November 3, 2008

New Toy!

After the Munch on Saturday I drove home. I couldn't wait to tell my husband all about the Munch and how much fun it was. When I got home he asked me if I wanted to go to the good adult toy store in the city. Of course I said sure! Its been forever since I've had a new toy and all of mine are still in storage from my move. So we went to the store and he told me I could pick out whatever I wanted. I immediately fell in love with a rather large pink jelly dildo. I love the jelly ones, they just feel so much more realistic and filling.

So I bought it and we drove home. I couldn't wait to get there and try it out. As soon as we walked in the door I started stripping off clothing while my husband walked the puppy. Now a word about this toy: it is by far the biggest thing that has ever been in me, at least for a very long time. My husband is about average. This toy is 8.5" long by 2.5" wide. Definitely larger than average. Anyway, I lubed it up and put it in. I was surprised at first because I can't remember the last time something hurt when it went in. Around this time my husband came back in. He stripped down as well and joined me on the bed.

After a few more strokes I pulled it out and set it aside. I let him try to fuck me with his smaller cock. I was so surprised that I could hardly feel it in me. I told him to pull out. I started to give my already hard husband a blowjob. I love oral sex. It is so amazing to me. I brought him off rather quickly then got up to wash the toy. I came back and settled on my belly between his legs. I began to suck him hard again then push my fingers into him one by one. I could tell he was enjoying it and he kept asking for more until I had all five inside him. He told me he wanted to try the toy too. I was shocked. He has never been that open about saying what he wants, besides he had never had anything that big in him before.

So after making sure he really wanted it, I lubed it up and started to put it in. In a short amount of time I could tell I wouldn't be able to get it in. I told him and instead of giving up, he asked if he could try by himself. Speechless, I agreed. Where did my shy, reluctant husband go? I gave it to him and watched in wonder as he worked it slowly into himself. By the time he got it in as much as he could he had almost 8 inches inside. That was more than my rather experienced pussy could take! After a couple minutes of watching, I took over and gently fucked him with it. He came very fast after that. I was surprised at how much it had turned me on. I licked up all the cum off his belly and snowballed it into his mouth. He didn't complain, although I know he doesn't really like the way his cum tastes. He just sucked my tongue clean.

After we cleaned off, we snuggled into bed and I held him while we went to sleep. He usually doesn't like me to hold him after, but he seemed to like it that night. I think that this experience has actually made him more comfortable with himself and our relationship. I am so proud of him. Who knew a new toy would do so much for us.

Catch Up

Ok I know I've been bad. I've been neglecting to post. *slaps hand* Bad girl. Anyway, so I went to the Munch Saturday. I am sooooo glad I did! It was so much fun. I got to meet so many new people. I don't remember all the names, but in my defense I was a little overwhelmed. I hope no one gets offended. I fully plan on going to the next one on Friday and the Early Bloomers Munch for 18-35 year olds on Saturday afternoon. I think my husband might go with me, but I'm not sure. He still isn't really comfortable with it yet.

For me, finding others into BDSM was an epiphany. I felt like I found a place to meet others and feel less alone. For my husband it isn't. He is still uncomfortable with the lifestyle and his feelings about being Dominated. I am hoping to help him be more comfortable with it and accept it. Its just hard because he spent most of his life pretending he didn't need anything or anyone. It makes it hard for him to open up to others and be himself. Little by little he is getting more comfortable and suprises me daily. I can't help but be proud of him.