Ok shameless plug post. I have been a member of my local munch group for quite awhile now and I have met many many wonderful people there. One of my favorite people is Mr. A of Abraided Leather. This man is seriously amazing. He is a very nice, friendly guy who is always willing to strike up a conversation or answer a question. In addition to his sparkling personality, he is also a skilled leather worker. He offers a variety of leather and imitation BDSM toys. I am absolutely in love with his floggers. His pieces are beautiful, well made, and very reasonably priced. Whats not to love? :P
Not only does he offer stock pieces, he does custom orders as well. He can make just about anything in any color. It is truly amazing. I suggest that anyone looking for affordable quality toys check out his site or if you are in the area, hit him up at a munch. He is almost always there. Plus he usually raffles off a toy or two at the munches with the profits going to the Humane Society. Talk about a great reason to part with a few bucks. :)
In conclusion, I guess I just can't say enough about Mr. A and his amazing work. He is a great guy with a great hobby. Check out his site at: http://www.abraided.com/
You will be glad you did. :)
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Submissive Girl?
I have been wondering lately if I should change the title of my blog. In some ways I think I should leave it as is because I still am a submissive girl. I still submit to Sir and Daddy, but it seems like most of the time I am in Domme mode because of M. I am not really as physically submissive as I would like anymore because Sir and I have settled into a style that suits our relationship much better. I am His little girl as well as well as Daddy's, but I am not beaten or physically punished at all by either. It would be pretty difficult with Daddy 20 hours away and Sir doesn't really enjoy the physical side of D/s. He is much more into the mental side of it.
This presents me with a quandary. I am a submissive as well as a Dominant. I am a switch so shouldn't the title of my blog reflect that. Before I had a submissive I never really had to worry about it. But now that I am actively in both roles shouldn't I take that role and adapt it to my blog.
I think that every person changes as they grow up and get more comfortable and learn more about themselves. A person's identity is a constantly evolving entity. As I continue to grow and change and discover new things shouldn't the way I identify myself in my public and private lives change too? I think so.
This presents me with a quandary. I am a submissive as well as a Dominant. I am a switch so shouldn't the title of my blog reflect that. Before I had a submissive I never really had to worry about it. But now that I am actively in both roles shouldn't I take that role and adapt it to my blog.
I think that every person changes as they grow up and get more comfortable and learn more about themselves. A person's identity is a constantly evolving entity. As I continue to grow and change and discover new things shouldn't the way I identify myself in my public and private lives change too? I think so.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Too Busy...
Lately I have been neglecting my blog. I guess I have plenty of excuses, and I really have been busy, but mostly its laziness. I really haven't felt like writing lately. Alot has been happening and I got behind...which made me put off catching up, which of course, put me further behind.
Things have been going well with M. She is very sweet and wonderful. I don't know how I got along without her before. She came down a few weeks ago and stayed with me overnight. It was wonderful. I spanked her until her entire ass was bright red and covered in hand print welts. :) It was fantastic. She is so sensitive, I had her squirming in no time. It was also the first time I fell asleep with her in my arms and I can't tell you how wonderful that was.
After she stayed with me I went home with her and stayed a few days. It was really nice because I met her fiance and their friends. We got to spend more time together and she showed me her favorite places in her hometown. We had a small incident the second day I was there. I had told her to kneel on the floor without moving or talking for one minute as a punishment for brattiness (of which she is guilty of quite a bit). She refused to do it, so I left her to pout on the bed while I sat in a chair and smoked, waiting for her to obey. After a few minutes she realized I wasn't going to give in to her pouting and knelt on the floor. Her one minute had been upped to six for disobedience. I timed her and after her punishment was up I pulled her onto the bed and held her and we talked over what had happened. I think that she is testing me as much as I am testing her. I know that she has had other Dommes in the past that have given in or failed to be Dominant and that has made her wary of me. I think that she is beginning to trust that even though strict protocol isn't my style I still have certain expectations of behavior that I will not budge on. Complete obedience to commands is one of those things.
When I got home from staying with M, I used clothespins on her breasts for the first time. After we got to my house the night she dropped me off, she ended up staying pretty late. I used my multi-colored pins to make a matching a flower pattern on both of her breasts. It looked wonderful and I wish I had taken a picture.
Hopefully M will be able to come stay with me the first weekend of June. I want to take her to the Munch and show her off to my friends. Also I hope to have a special surprise for her, but since she will probably read this I won't write what it is. I just hope she likes it as much as I think she will. :)
Well that is all the catching up I feel like tonight. Maybe I will write about my first date with M sometime in the future. It was a very interesting night.
Things have been going well with M. She is very sweet and wonderful. I don't know how I got along without her before. She came down a few weeks ago and stayed with me overnight. It was wonderful. I spanked her until her entire ass was bright red and covered in hand print welts. :) It was fantastic. She is so sensitive, I had her squirming in no time. It was also the first time I fell asleep with her in my arms and I can't tell you how wonderful that was.
After she stayed with me I went home with her and stayed a few days. It was really nice because I met her fiance and their friends. We got to spend more time together and she showed me her favorite places in her hometown. We had a small incident the second day I was there. I had told her to kneel on the floor without moving or talking for one minute as a punishment for brattiness (of which she is guilty of quite a bit). She refused to do it, so I left her to pout on the bed while I sat in a chair and smoked, waiting for her to obey. After a few minutes she realized I wasn't going to give in to her pouting and knelt on the floor. Her one minute had been upped to six for disobedience. I timed her and after her punishment was up I pulled her onto the bed and held her and we talked over what had happened. I think that she is testing me as much as I am testing her. I know that she has had other Dommes in the past that have given in or failed to be Dominant and that has made her wary of me. I think that she is beginning to trust that even though strict protocol isn't my style I still have certain expectations of behavior that I will not budge on. Complete obedience to commands is one of those things.
When I got home from staying with M, I used clothespins on her breasts for the first time. After we got to my house the night she dropped me off, she ended up staying pretty late. I used my multi-colored pins to make a matching a flower pattern on both of her breasts. It looked wonderful and I wish I had taken a picture.
Hopefully M will be able to come stay with me the first weekend of June. I want to take her to the Munch and show her off to my friends. Also I hope to have a special surprise for her, but since she will probably read this I won't write what it is. I just hope she likes it as much as I think she will. :)
Well that is all the catching up I feel like tonight. Maybe I will write about my first date with M sometime in the future. It was a very interesting night.
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Girlfriend???
Ok the last few days have been great. I met a girl online on a dating website I belong to. I will call her M. We have been chatting and texting for the last few days. I really like her and she is adorable. I am supposed to go meet her tomorrow. I am so excited! M is funny and sweet and submissive in a bratty way that reminds me of myself. She definitely brings out the Domme in me. Here is to hoping everything goes well tomorrow! :)
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Hot and Bothered
I am so horny I can't stand it. I want my Daddy so much tonight it is unreal. I have already cum three times thinking about being there with Him, with His hands on my body, His cock in me. It is driving me crazy. I am so wet I am dripping all down my thighs. I would give almost anything to be there with Him right now. I don't want to have to wait very long before I can visit with Him and Kitty. I hope I won't have to.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Pity Party
I'm sure that if anyone out there has been reading my blog for the last year or two, you are sick of hearing about my self-centered babbling about how unhappy I generally am. For those people, I recommend skipping this post because that is all its going to be.
I am so sick of being so fucking unhappy. Daddy told me recently that being unhappy about who and what you are is like acid. It eats away at your core. I fully agree. Hardly a moment goes by that I don't feel it eating me away. I can't stop crying and hating myself. I can't change for my husband and it makes me hate that part of me that loves, craves, and ultimately needs everything that BDSM offers. I hate that who I am and what I need has yet again made me a failure. Once again, I'm not good enough or normal enough for something I want to work. I really thought that I could be happy vanilla if I just tried hard enough. Instead I just succeeded in making a mess out of my life and His too.
I hate that I will end up hurting Him. I hate that I can't change. I hate myself. And all that hate is eating away at me. I cannot keep going like this. Something has got to give, and soon. I think I will go insane if I keep going like this much longer. I can't handle it.
What happened to fairness? What happened to work hard to succeed? What happened to all you need is love? Where is the fairness in this? I've worked hard. I'm still trying. I've given and received more love than I've ever felt. So where is my happy ending? So where is my successful marriage? And where the fuck is my happiness?
I am so sick of being so fucking unhappy. Daddy told me recently that being unhappy about who and what you are is like acid. It eats away at your core. I fully agree. Hardly a moment goes by that I don't feel it eating me away. I can't stop crying and hating myself. I can't change for my husband and it makes me hate that part of me that loves, craves, and ultimately needs everything that BDSM offers. I hate that who I am and what I need has yet again made me a failure. Once again, I'm not good enough or normal enough for something I want to work. I really thought that I could be happy vanilla if I just tried hard enough. Instead I just succeeded in making a mess out of my life and His too.
I hate that I will end up hurting Him. I hate that I can't change. I hate myself. And all that hate is eating away at me. I cannot keep going like this. Something has got to give, and soon. I think I will go insane if I keep going like this much longer. I can't handle it.
What happened to fairness? What happened to work hard to succeed? What happened to all you need is love? Where is the fairness in this? I've worked hard. I'm still trying. I've given and received more love than I've ever felt. So where is my happy ending? So where is my successful marriage? And where the fuck is my happiness?
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