Kinky Catch Up

I have noticed that other than touting the many wonderful things about my boy I really haven't written anything for months. So I have decided that it is quick update time.

First of all I have been trying to improve my rope skills for my boy. He loves bondage and decorative rope work so I have been learning new knots and experimenting with new designs. Last nite I used white silk rope to make a chest harness and interlocking corset on Bear. It actually looked good and I was bummed I didn't have a camera for documentation. I will have to get my hands on one soon.

Also I have always been curious about lactation and adult nursing. Recently my boy confided that he also had always wanted to try it. So we have been doing research on how to induce lactation even though I have never been pregnant. We have been using the Marmet Technique as well as suckling. So far it seems to be working. No milk yet, but my breasts and nipples are swelling and slightly sore. This is supposed to be normal. I am also considering taking herbs to naturally stimulate as well. Even if I don't have any milk yet, I still enjoy trying very much. Hopefully we will be able to get positive results soon. From the information I have found, it is also helpful that I am on birth control that hormonally simulates pregnancy. This should make it much easier.

My boy is also discovering he can handle much more pain than he thought. We have been experimenting with his pain tolerance to see not only how much punishment he can comfortably take, but also what types of things he prefers. He seems to enjoy the same types of toys I do, floggers and other impact play objects. Also like me, he dislikes stinging toys like canes. He is also able to play quite often. We have been having at least one play session every two or three days instead of once or twice a month. I am extremely proud of him and I can't even begin to describe how much I have really come to love and appreciate him these last few months especially.

I think thats enough for now. Hopefully everything will continue to improve. My vanilla life isn't going nearly as well, but I am still holding out hope for that to improve as well.

Things To Love... (Pt. 3)

4. His stubbornness: Usually this is considered a negative trait, but I don't see it that way. He is very strong willed and if he is insistent about something there is always a good reason. He can be very practical at times and helps to keep my feet on the ground when my mind is several steps ahead. He is always there with gentle reminders to eat or sleep when I have forgotten and he always makes sure I take care of myself when I would be neglectful of my own everyday needs. He knows when to take a stand and is not afraid to question things. He also refuses to let me overwhelm myself or work myself too hard. His stubbornness is a wonderful asset in our relationship and it is another thing I love about my boy.

Things To Love... (Pt. 2)

3. His smell: Yeah I know what you are probably thinking, but I'm completely serious. Whether he is freshly showered or sweaty from work my boy always smells great. I don't understand how he does it, but I wish I could bottle his smell. I love to run my fingers up the sides of his face into his hair and plant kisses on the top of his head just so I can bury my nose in his scent. I imagine its how angels would smell if they existed. I love to hold him in my arms and be enveloped in his sweet scent. :D

Things To Love...

2. Innocence: I love his innocence. Whether or not he is being shy or outgoing, sweet or stubborn there is an innocence and purity about him that shines like a beacon that blinds as it saves. It is an innocence I lost a long time ago, if I ever even had it to start with. It warms me and brings a smile to my face every day.

Almost Only Counts...

So to keep things short and moving at a fast pace I'm going to be brief. I almost lost my boy and it messed up my world and the way I think about my life. So in an effort to remind myself how lucky I am to still have him in my life I am going to try to list at least one reason why I am grateful by listing all the things that I love about him.

1. His kindness: He is one of the most kind-hearted men I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. He is more compassionate than I could ever be and I am grateful that he is there to temper my sternness with a kinder tone.

Playing in Public (Part 1)

I know this is belated, but vanilla life family emergencies and school have kept me at a constant state of emotional and physical drain. March 6th I played with Bear at a munch party for the first time. It was amazing and intense. I will write more later. Too exhausted tonight.

Little's Night Out

Today my friend Chickie and her daddy came to pick me up for a little's day with our friend Austin and his mommy. We went out for pizza then went bowling. It was super fun and I can't tell you how much I needed to get out and play with my little friends. I can't wait until tomorrow. It is munch night and I will get to see them all again, but this time I will have Bear with me. It was a great night and I am so tired. Gonna head to bed.